thinking out loud

sunday brunch + karaoke

2012-02-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

Officially finished LLB 1st semester. Alhamdulillah. Now its about waiting for the results *yikes*. InsyaAllah result ok, pray and tawakal Amin. LLB 1st semester felt like it took sooo long. Seeing as the others are already on their holidays and enjoying. So finally when I finally finished 1st semester decided to have brunch eat good food and do one of my favourite things ever sing karaoke! Something where its not about being good at it its just for fun. You sound good or bad, sing off tune or hit the right key does not matter. Its about being silly singing at the top of our lungs and enjoying ourself. And boy I sure did. However looks like the guys yg dh lama merdeka ni pun also enjoyed themselves too hahaha. Wished everyone could come but seeing as semua dh merdeka mostly are outstation. Anyhows judging from the pictures it shows siapa yg lg over karaoke. Clearly the guys!

My boo boo and azad really into their song

Busy in the kitchen while the others are karaoke-ing

Our take home chef preparing delicious apple crumble

potato salad and roast chicken ( I forgot to take a pic before we ate) this will do, ooh and danial's cookies LOL

Yum! sweet duck sandwich by wawa the take home chef

Karaoke all day long

Aint no quitter!

2011-12-11T02:17:00.002+08:00

I've been told it'll be crazy and now I know how crazy it gets,

There are days when LLB is crazy hectic,so challenging,mentally and physically tiring it really tests your strength and it has almost broke me down. To a point once it crossed my mind maybe I'm not cut out for this, and I seriously feel like throwing in the towel. But I must say together with god willing, my support system they are the reason why I'm still standing. Last two weeks was awful and I have literally fallen. Had it not been for them I probably would have totally given up.

They are the people who would continue giving me support and encouragement when they can see I'm on the brink of giving up, they are those who knows when I'm trying so hard to fight back my tears yet they wouldn't give up and still sit there and talk with me till they see a smile on my face.

And as for me I'm hanging in there and am praying for strength and perseverance. And InsyaAllah everything will turn out well. Like a dear friend of mind said to me, "hang in there once we finish this we'll be laughing thinking back all the stuff we did and went though for LLB and we'll be glad we hang on and completed it". Amin to that.

3 years , new journey , a clearer perspective

2011-09-13T01:38:00.002+08:00

Been very busy with preparation for LLB

Only now I find the time for this : )

Alhamdulillah *3 years* dah.

Am very much in love

love goofing around and being a silly goof together,getting spoiled,

looking past each other's flaws and imperfections,

working into becoming a better person together

I love you so very much boo

Back to UNI !!

Dear me,

Bismillahhirrahmanirahim

Stay calm

Stay focus

InsyaAllah

everything will be A-okay

Right now :

A much clearer perspective on my life

as compared to the old me

just going about everyday life as it is

NOW

with a renewed purpose in life

pretty please dear me be CONSISTENT.

The little tater tot and her shenanigans

2011-08-21T15:27:00.000+08:00

Enjoying her slice of chocolate cake all to herself

Her gangsta face

Her don't smile model look showing off her pink fairy wings

Ooh how this little tiny tater tot has grown and every week she comes to the family gathering with her many attitude entertaining us all. *Gerammmmm*

The many things im thankful about

2011-08-21T04:31:00.000+08:00

In the holy month of Ramadhan the month we work to improve ourselves whilst at it I realise amongst the many things that I am thankful about are,

Above all I am so very thankful for a very supportive family. Especially the very understanding and supportive parents of mine. Here I am sulking and sad at home through the time i didnt get in llb they didnt once scolded me instead lectured me and gave me motivation and support. And then thats when i discovered my love of creating things. That was the beginning of me staying up late till the wee hours working on my creations. All i talk about was my hobby.And again of course my parents didnt look at it as something silly or a waste of time ( i thought they'd think that and be skeptical about me starting a small business selling my creations. ) instead they are very supportive of my hobby which I have turned into my passion. Im not a perfect daughter but for my many imperfections my parents look past that and have constantly showed me their love no matter what situation im in Alhamdulilah. My turn ,my part as daugher : To work on being the best loving daughter to them. I vow to change for the better.

I am so very thankful to have met this person became friends with him for about 1 year plus and then when we both decided to be a couple of lovebirds, who would have thought the challenges that came along with it. Yet again he's not perfect nor am I. His good outweighs the bad.

The moments I would always remember :

*Moment 1*
Me, all ready to go out on our date. As I walk towards his car he gives me "the look". And of course I know "the look" it's his (are you serious?? ) look. The reason: According to him my pants were too see through. I just brushed it off and say its fine.. cant hardly see it unless im in the sunlight..Yet he was so adamant that he doesnt agree with me dressing that way. So ok I went back in change came back out. I didnt at all felt offended, angry or annoyed by his action that made me change my pants. Instead i felt honoured to have a boyfriend who protects my honour my dignity. So particular and protective that the way I dress he doesnt like it to be too short, too see through. I even felt myself smilling at that moment. I didnt at all for a moment felt he's being overbearing and controlling. I felt honoured.

* Moment 2 *
Another memorable moment, so randomly so suddenly he asked me do you pray? See thing is here's the part where it shows my flaws. And he sees it too. I pray but I do at times leave out certain times of prayers. And he starts by gently telling me that I should bring my telekung and put one pair in my car. So wherever i go and especially during class I wont have an excuse not to pray. I came up with another excuse saying I dont like the surau at campus saying it's stuffy and has the damp smell. He doesnt give up there. He said he'll bring me to a place that'll be comfortable for me. The next day he brings me to the mosque. And the days after that seeing as the lunch break is short he meets me after lunching with the guys just to bring me to a different surau which is comfortable for me to pray. Never once did he complain or scolded me saying im so mengade about place to pray pon nak choosy. He is so patient showing me its not that difficult to pray. And I realise now not to be too particular about places to pray and because of him, he is one of the reason that Alhamdulillah Im a better person now. I find my peace. 5 times a day.

* Moment 3*
Another beautiful moment, when he randomly came to meet me and brought 3 beautiful daisies. My favourite flower. For no apparent reason, there was no special occasion , he sure was not using the flowers to pujuk me because of a fight. All the more reason I was so surprised he showed up with flowers.

* Moment 4 *
In a bad fight, I decided I had enough got up and walked out on him. All the time while I was walking away I thought he was walking away too. But to my surprise there he was, came up from behind to console me and speak calmly to me and brought me back to my senses and he managed to calm me down.

* Moment 5 *
In another moment which come to think of it now, at that time i was over reacting. It was me pms-ing I know thats not a good enough reason but it contributed to me over reacting. Merajuk sangat to the point switched off my phone went out and there was no way for him to contact me or look for me. He somehow managed to ask around for clues where I was and came looking for me. Just the moment I wanted to stop all this merajuk nonsense and wishing he was there with me at that exact moment he came from behind. My heart stopped and wondered how did he manage to find me. The look on my face pure happiness just so happy to see him.

* Moment 6 *
Woke up with a nightmare called him and in his grogginess he recites the ayat qursi and the doa before going to sleep and he calms me down so i can go back to sleep. And now every night he calls and he recites doa for both of us before we sleep.

* Moment 7 *
He constantly reminds me of the value of money. Seeing as how much I love to shop and drive around just to get a specific item. At times he is my sanity reminding me do I really need it? And at times telling me its okay we dont have to go buy it today we can go another day. And then thankfully we didnt buy it that day because true enough i found something better somewhere else the next day. This has happen many times with him by my side reminding me to look around first or dont buy it just yet. My sanity my constant reminder.

All this have been going through my mind so very often. Hence the reason I am writing about it. And I remember now. When I was growing up I remembered in my prayers I would often pray please God make me meet a person who can guide me and be my leader. And in him (boyfriend of mine) I see those qualities.
Alhamdulilah I am so thankful.

Embarking on a new journey

2011-07-22T05:26:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulilah Im so relieved and thankful that finally i've made it in llb. The new journey begins. *Here's to new beginnings*.

As for now my new journey has already begun with finding out that starting out something new is not easy. It doesnt matter if its something i really like and enjoy so much doing. But i've realised it sure is not a walk in the park. This is what people call starting from the bottom from scratch. Literally. Its tough!

Whatever it is im in for the ride and there's no where else im heading but foward.

Lesson learned: Determination + Perseverance + Commitment + Patience + Hard work = InsyaAllah the outcome will be a good one. Amin.

My mind is full of wonders

2011-05-17T05:00:00.002+08:00

As of now...

1. I am constantly thinking of all the creative ideas and the execution plan.

2. So many things im thinking of doing find it hard to sleep at night reasons being i just cant seem to sleep when my mind keeps on working and inspirations seem to come to me at the oddest hour of the day.

3. I am enjoying hour every minute every second of my time doing what i really love doing.

4. Who knew i had such imagination even i myself am surprise with weird ideas that pop up in my head.

5. Most times i am physically sitting still at one place but truthfully speaking i am miles away caught up in my own world.

6. My muse and inspirations comes in all forms even while shopping for grocery, while im looking for parking space,walking by roadside to buy lunch

7 Even weirder, though my mind is constantly thinking of more ideas it somehow all of this imagination seems to serve as peace and tranquility to me.

You dont understand

2011-03-13T11:30:00.001+08:00

"When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years"

You say you're here but truth is you're just so busy wrapped up in your own world. I've been alone in this. There's no "us" if its just me making the effort while you are just so engrossed with your own life. I have no choice but to walk away from this or else i'll keep on drowning deeper while you are just so selfish to even notice im drowning. I just hope that one day you will realise there's so much more to life other than your llb.I hope you will learn to make time for those who care for you. Because if you really care you will make time.

Im not expecting to always meet you. I understand its tough,tiring,stressful and you dont even get enough sleep and there's tonnes of assigments and tests one after another. I understand.But at least call. One phone call that lasts longer than 50 seconds, is that too much to ask for? I have tried. But i've finally lost my patience.The effort has got to come from you yourself.I really did do my best to make it work.Its time for me to move on.

As for now

2011-03-06T02:29:00.002+08:00

* I miss my mama and abah very much.

* Very annoyed with big sister's attitude.

* Its been about a month plus since i've met any of my friends. I miss that too.

* I've started work/attatchment.

* I've been given research on bankruptcy and submission.

* I've been given case study and articles to be read and discussed.

* I'm scared I'd make myself come of as incompetent and stupid by doing the
research and discussing the case and articles wrongly.

* Almost everyday at work i feel as tough im so small and dumb because i dont know
much as compared to the lawyers and chambering students.

* My high spirit and excitement of learning and experiencing new things is slightly
dampened.

* Very disappointed with some people's preconception of me before they actually get
to know the real me.

* So very disappointed on how people judge a book by its cover.

* I'm not gonna let anyone make me feel small and stupid.What's most important is
im there to work and learn.

* I'm gonna keep on working hard to learn new things and gain experience from this
opportunity.

* If i make mistakes,look or sound stupid so what.I'm still learning.

* Its what learning is about.Everyone makes mistakes.I make mistakes too at times
and I'll learn from it.

* What sets a smart person apart from an ignorant person is,

Ignorant person = those who keep on making the same mistakes

Smart person = those who learn from their mistakes.

* My current mode: to learn and develop myself

* I shall not be so bothered with what others think of me.

* I'm sincere to learn and that's what matters most.

photographs and a hidden surprise love letter

2011-02-06T19:46:00.000+08:00

What a pleasant surprise. Framed photos of us and the "icing on the cake" was the love letter he wrote and cleverly hid on the board at the back part of the frame. It was the sweetest love letter. I was smilling grinning from ear to ear.Who knew the usualy reserved boyfriend of mine could express himself in the sweetest way ever. Im so touched by the letter. He has wrote love notes, random little sayings for me. But a love letter. This is the first. And i can tell he practiced a lot of times what to write. Hehehe. So sweet i knew he wanted it to be just perfect. Bt i must say I love the imperfections. How he inserted the things left out by adding it in by the side. So quirky. Love it!

Btw,I know exactly what im gonna do with the love letter. Inspiration has just popped in my head for my art work curtesy of boo boo and his love letter. But this piece of artwork by me will be special. Cz its inspired by him and im gonna personalized it. It'll definately be one of a kind ; )

I miss him already..its ok he's coming back tonight. Yeay! i dont know how i'll be in a long distance relationship. He has only been away for a few days and already it feels like something, a part of me is missing. It doesnt help that he forgot to activate his roaming system. Haihh. Boys and men they overlook those kind of things. It'll be way easier to text n call. Luckily there's internet. Had to make do with e-mail.

Anyhow that aside, im totally smitten by the lovely surprise by my oh so loving boo boo. Kept me smiling for days and days : )

Exploring the creative scene

2011-02-01T04:00:00.001+08:00

I've been so engrossed in working on my side project the one that i've been putting off for a few months. Now finally its up and running. Im so excited about it!

Current mode: Working hard trying to get it done while at the same time exploring every nooks and croonies, observing and looking for inspirations. Ideas come popping in my head at the randomest times. Which explains the reason why i have to bring my sketchbook around to sketch or jot it down. For desperate measures jotting it down in my phone as soon as it comes. Or else it might slip my mind.

Anyhow that's still an ongoing process. As for now some pictures from klpac's open day and world press photo 10

As for klpac open day it was ok.I enjoyed playing dress up in costumes and getting our picture taken and the closing. The performance with all sorts of musical instruments. I really did enjoy that. Felt like getting up and dancing along doing the hilly billy dance.HAHAHAH. Bt I hav to say the musical perfomance was fun. I liked that part the most.

For the world press day photo exhibition,Oh how i loved the picture exhibits.So raw. So real.Very in your face. The pictures spoke a million words to me. Especially the war pictures. I felt disgusted at how these people can continue attacking and killing innocent civilians, i felt angry,felt sad, felt like crying there and then. Im so sensative. I know. But seriously that's how good it was it could move me to tears.

On the other hand i took photos of some inspiring photographs. As for the photos i talked about earlier, I jz couldnt bring myself to take photos of those photographs cos i know i will cry everytime i look at it. After all it is already a clear image in my head a constant reminder of just how cruel some people are.

challenging preconceptions

empowering women

poverty does not prevent them from working hard to get what they want

Happy New Year!

2011-01-16T18:45:00.002+08:00

I know right two weeks have passed im sitll here wishing new year. But its still January 2011 has just begun and what a way to ring in the new year with a family wedding. *Meaning a new addition to the family * i hav a sister in law : ) As for the wedding it was very much so a family affair especially with gramps very hands on and involved with the preperations. Alhamdulillah everything went well except for some minor glitches. Like the ushering issue. Nevermind that, we are all very glad everything else went smoothly.

My big brother is a married man!! lol cant believe it. *So happy for both of them* best wishes for both and i pray for them a lifetime of happiness.

It was fun,challenging, most of all tiring helping with the preperations of the wedding. Now that everything is done. Im in need to go to a spa for some relaxation time and pampering.

As for the new year i received a handbook for 2011 which i think will be very helpful to me. Since sometimes im just so serious and stressed. Im in need of guidelines.

HEALTH:
1. drink plenty of water
2. eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar
3. live with the 3 E's. Enthusiasm, Energy and Empathy
4. make time to pray
5. play more games
6. read more books than you did in 2010
7. sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
8. sleep for 7 hours
9. take 10-30 minutes walk daily.

PERSONALITY:
10. dont over do. keep your limits
11.dont take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
12.dream more while you are awake
13.envy is a waste of time. you already have all you need
14. Forget issues of the past. dont remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. that will ruin your present happiness
15.life is to short to waste time hating anyone. dont hate others.
16. make peace with your past so it wont spoil the present
17. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
18. smile and laugh more
19. you dont have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

SOCIETY:
20. call your family often
21. each day give something good to others
22.forgive everyone for everything
23.spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
24. try to make at least 3 people smile each day
25. what other people think of you is none of your business.

LIFE:
26. do the right thing!
27.GOD heals everything
28.However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
29. no matter how you feel, get up, get dressed and show up.
30. the best is yet to come.
31. when awake in the morning, thank GOD for it.
32. your inner most is always happy, so be happy

* the ones highlighted RED are what i totally agree with and in need to instill for myself.

After all its a new year so here's to new beginnings!!

Shopping!

2010-12-25T17:07:00.001+08:00

His

Hers

Our plan was just to go window shopping. Instead we found ourselves buying and buying.Its addictive. When you start buying one thing you'll want the next item you see. And its contagious. When you go shopping the urge to shop will rub on the other person too. Good bargains tho. We found some quiky and beautiful things at reasonable prices. Gotta love a bargain!

Everyone has their ways

2010-12-23T00:48:00.003+08:00

Him being a person of few words,secretive,reserved and not so expressive. He sure does has his own ways of showing his love and affection. Here's one perfect example. Knowing lately i havent been the usual cheerful me. Apart from taking me to nice special dates,to dinner and movies he takes it up a notch. Just to make sure i wont be sad he prepared his own version of 'survival kit' for me. A comedy chick flick dvd and some chocolate rolls. In his attempt to replace my tears to laughters.

Not to mention him being woken up by my calls in the wee hours because i would be crying and i can't sleep. He would calm me down,talk with me and in his half asleep half awake voice he would read the doa sebelum tidur for me so that i can sleep peacefully.

Its sucky feeling sad and depressed. But having him and his own special ways sure does make it easier to deal with this feelings. Afterall things happen for a reason and its probably not my time yet. My turn will come later. As for now i'll be patient, work on improving myself and one thing for sure im not giving up.

* He sure does has his own ways of making me smile when i feel like crying : ) *

Weddings,marriages and the little tot's birthday

2010-12-20T18:48:00.001+08:00

The cutie pie little niece of mine 1st birthday party! Looking all cute in her puffy tutu striking her pose. Feel like squeezing her all the time. Wishing a blessed life for this tiny tot and bright future ahead of her : *

Reading hilarious blogs and facebook browsing together, talks and discussion on weddings and marriage. Already yawning bt still pushing it and karaoke-ing til 3 in the morning together. What a night. And i feel so grown up. Speaking of weddings its definately the season, and seeing how many people my age are getting married and a family friend. It really starts to make us think. Just sitting and talking about how far we've come together from kindergarden til now. As for us marriage?? we're making sure we're stable.Especially with me graduating soon. Alhamdulilah i feel blessed. But i know i still have a long more way to go. I feel like i've travelled far but its still a loooong journey to go.

right this moment..

2010-12-17T01:13:00.001+08:00

Im bummed
Its been 5 days straight of not working out and eating all sorts of fattening food. ARGGHHH!

Realise
Its so difficult to stay motivated when your mind is not in it. Mental power, definately important... Its much easier to work out when my mind is in the right mindset as compared to a negative mindset.

Rock bottom
Just when im really depressed and defeated. Then i noticed. Not once did my parents scolded me or or gave me lengthy lecture about "you should have". Instead they kept on being supportive and pushing me foward telling me to stay positive and keep moving foward.

A humbling moment
Seeing a little boy helping his mom earn money by dragging huge bags of tid bits trying to sell from table to table. Even more humbling he had such a pleasant face and was cheerful and friendly even though its obvious he has a hard life. Makes me grateful for all that i have.

Room make over
Its starting to come together! Bit by bit. Finally. Sooo happy enjoying taking time looking for inspirations from all over.

1 year
The cutie pie tegan is one years old! It feels fast watching her grow. Cant believe one year dh. She's so cute, geram.

Looking foward to
Date with the very patient loving supportive boo boo. Its been a while since the last time we went out for a proper date night. Really happy with the idea getting the chance to take some time to enjoy each others company with all the busyness of the wedding.Yeay ! Gonna get all gussied up for a date night with boo boo : )

Daydreaming of food

2010-12-06T23:27:00.004+08:00

Now that im exercising and trying my best to limit my food intake and excluding certain types of food i find my self being frustrated more often.The fact that i cannot eat the normal food that i usualy eat is really starting to take its toll on me. Im grumpy and starting to get really fed up with exercising and working out. As for now I really need to let out my food cravings frustrations. ( not that i know if it'll help )

I daydream of..

chesse topping thin crust pizza
char kueh tiaw
mcd's french fries
baskin robbins ice cream
gelato
dunkin donuts
bisou and cup cake chic cup cakes
nasi lemak maybank with the ayam goreng + milo ais
carls jr burger and fries
mars chocolate bar
bianco's fudgy chocolate brownie
chewy chunky chocolate chip cookies
bawang merah's kuih keria
spaghetti bolognese
medan section 14 asam laksa
kraft macaroni and cheese
vichuda's and santai's nasi goreng usa
teh tarik and teh ice
carbonated drinks miranda orange and strawberry
thosai massala
roti canai
hakim's nasi kandar
caramel popcorn

Ok that's all that has been lingering around in my head for days and days. Feel slightly better now that i've let it out.

Up up up and away!

2010-11-27T00:39:00.000+08:00

Had so much fun enjoying the beautiful weather on a sunday afternoon picnicking and flying kites. Everyone was so excited i bet if there were lights on our kites we would have stayed on till late night still fyling our kites lol.

I just realised how relaxing it is to fly kites. For a moment there while i was flying my kite its like all my worries flew away. It takes effort and skill too though. without that you'll only be frustrated that you kite is not flying. But the feeling the moment it starts to fly up high its pure happiness faces filled with smiles. Im not exxagerating really it loads of fun. So much so that i enjoyed it just as much on the second round of flying kite too.

New activity to be added on hobby list, definately!

This explains it

2010-10-28T00:06:00.001+08:00

I dont know how others do it, but i've been having problem with reading jurisprudence. It seems to make me doze off everytime i start studying it. And of course im using my time very unproductively to explore the virtual world and how ironic! i came across this. Which is VERY TRUE. "The word required takes out all the fun in any activity". From now on i've got to put it in my mind that i WANT to read jurisprudence, not i have/required to. i want to read jurisprudence..i want to read jurisprudence..i want to.. ok now i sound like a looney. Geezz whatever it is just have to keep a positive mind set for finals! that's the spirit rite. Off to study. Im starting to freak out which means time to read up!

my heart out

2010-10-12T21:02:00.000+08:00

Who would have thought, with my decission to go through with this i thot i would be crying my heart out about this.Bt all this is just giving me space and time for myself. And in return i can think clearly and just when i thought i'd be crying my heart out instead im singing my heart out. Im head over feet : )

You stated your case time and again

I had no choice but to hear you

I thought about it

You treat me like I'm a princess

You ask how my day was

You are the bearer of unconditional things

You're so much braver than I gave you credit for

You held your breath and the door for me

Thanks for your patience

You've already won me over in spite of me

And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet

Don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are

I couldn't help it

It's all your fault

home sweet home

2010-10-10T20:46:00.001+08:00

I'm ecstatic to be home! Although as for now its a mess n full of dust. Bt 2 months staying at the condo is enough for me. Its depressing. It does not help that I'm so used to staying in a bright airy sunny house to staying at a gloomy,bad reception place full of foreigners makes me feel like I'm someplace else. The worst part bout it is that if u leave something behind you'd hav to get out of the car wait for the elevator to go up n den wait again for the elevator to go bck to the parking. Such a waste of time. Unlike living on landed house when I can just run back in to grab whatever it is I forget. So thankful and glad I'm home. Looking forward to redecorating it after finals of course. Since its only 15 more days till finals. I'm gasping n panicking.

TWO years

2010-09-04T23:50:00.001+08:00

this one's really interesting,butter prawns with cheese. how bout that? of course
after having all of these there's no more room left for dessert. Cakes at alexis im cominggg. for part 2 anniversary, dessert: coffee and cakes

steam asam fish yum!

of course i cant have thai food without my favourite kailan ikan masin

one nice tom yam i like that its not too spicy and i can enjoy it without shedding tears

my boo boo's happy surprised face{priceless} seeing him so happy it made me so happy
(jz seeing that smile makes it worthwhile)

the surprise in a box

i personalized it by hand stitching a love note : )
( out of all the things i've made for him so far this is the hardest to make, i didn't sleep a wink making this)

boo boo's present a hoodie

my version of an anniversary card, a painting on balsa wood

the tools and materials i used

First and foremost Alhamdulilah it's already two years. Looking back at it all, everything we've been through and because of it all it just makes us stronger.
~ you make the fights worth it when at the end of it we learn from our mistakes and learn to give in and
   compromise.
~ you make me learn from our fights how to handle guys and their pride and ego, and how sometimes
  we all just need our time and space
~ you make me laugh when i feel like im at my lowest point
~you tell me im pretty when i dont even have an inch of make up on my face
~you treat me like a princess
~the person i turn to when im having a breakdown to cry and not have to worry how sloppy i would
  look
~my sing-a-long karoke partner singing along our hearts out to the songs on the radio
~the person who is able to tell me to my face my weaknesses and help me work on it
~you let me in to you life and all the secret passages in you life so im able to get to know you better
~ in return it makes me comfortable enough to trust and let my walls down and not have to always hide and protect myself
~ because i know no matter how silly i act,how angry i get,how stubborn,how spoilt i behave you somehow are able to find a way to look at the good side of me

I know we still have a lot more things to learn from one another , a lot more fights we'll learn from together. With you by my side i know it'll be worth the roller coster ride. Im looking forward to going thorugh the ups and downs together, after all that's what its all about. What matters most is that at the end of the day i still love you through the good times and the bad times.

What scares me and what makes me sad

2010-08-29T22:30:00.002+08:00

What scares me: when people i care for falls sick and is hospitalised. Of course I panicked and so many things were going thru my head when I found out my moo che che was admitted. Been sleeping over at the hospital with her and thank god the she's much better and the doctor allowed her to go home. The 1st night I slept over at the hospital I couldn't hardly sleep. Another incidendt that scared me too was, when I was awoken so many times by what sounded like someone moving the furnitures around. It was so loud I can't sleep. Next day mom said I have to remember that it is after all a hospital. I got scared and told mom it didn't cross my mind at all about spirits in the hospital. See that's why I don't like to watch ghost stories. So I wouldn't think of such things. The next night before I slept I read ayat qursi so many times n thank god I sleep comfortably no sounds keeping me awake. Reminder: always remember to read ayat qursi.

What makes me sad: we've all seen it in the news, heard about it on the radio, read about it in the papers. And it really makes us sad to see the way these babies are being thrown away and disposed off like trash. I never knew how it felt to actually see it with my own eyes. On my way back home from the bazaar seeing the police officers by the drain and putting aside newspapers and a black trash bag on the ground. I knew straight away what it was about. I felt like crying there and then. It left a mark on me and made me realise that to always stay close to god and for us ladies to respect ourselves in order for others to do the same. Because love is more than just about lust. When a guy really loves us, he treats us well and with respect. What I saw today will serve as a reminder to me to stay level headed. Its a lesson for everyone. Especially ladies to realise and to differentiate between lust and love.
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{For a classic look}

2010-08-19T21:05:00.000+08:00

I find it hard for me to walk out of the few of my favourite accessories shop empty handed. Goshhh I just can't decide between the two items. Both are just nice in their own way. And what makes it harder was that my intention was just to go window shopping while I bully dear bf of mine to come along with me. Then I checked my purse and of course when I really want to buy something I don't have enough cash haihh..Boo boo being the sweetest bf bought me two beautiful accessories. A classic vintage style bangle and cocktail ring. I'm all smiles so happy with the gifts ; ). Bt of course this cannot be happening all the time. Wouldn't want to be a razor gf would I? Reality check. Note to self my boo boo is so sweet n I'm so happy he bought me the stuff. I love being spoilt all girls do. Bt the most important thing is I love him so much regardless of whether he buys me things or not. The most patient bf and I really mean it coz I know for a fact that I can be quite a handful to handle on my bad days. I'm so thankful to have a loving bf. : *
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inspirations for room makeover

2010-08-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

Since the house is on renovation im lucky enough too to get to makeover my room. Its so exciting getting the chance to make it over.So many ideas running around in my head i think i should have an ispiration board to stick all of them so i can have a clear view of all of them before i decide.As for now these are just a few things and ideas that i like.

2010-08-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

Went for a treat with boo,bubble tea (one of the shops at 15 subang) the peach bubble tea is really nice. I had the smoothie with it was nice too not bad.. Ramadhan is here no more tea time and snacking in the afternoon for a month. I look foward to it every year. Somehow Its the time of the year when I feel at peace and Its a good time for spiritual cleansing and to bring ourselfs closer to Allah. Planning to spend the time wisely InsyaAllah. On a different topic I was surprised to come home after a tiring first day of fasting to find that moo che bought me goodies from her eco bazaar held by her student union. Everything is handmade. A beautiful sling bag made from sari material, intricate drawing on a postcard on recycled paper and a fluffy flower hair band. Pretty stuff : ). Love it! Til next time. Happy fasting! Be nice and use the time wisely and may all of us be blessed by the Ramadhan insyaAllah.
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Kiwi holiday!

2010-07-03T10:12:00.000+08:00

Its beautiful here just that's bcos its winter its really cold. There I was expecting the temperature to be around 10- 16 degree. To my suprise it drops down to 5 degree on somedays. People are nice and friendly. Shopping is great. Especially with the winter sale. There are some good bargains. Its winter so I'm bummed since im not sure if I can go river rafting since even on land I'm freezing it'll be worse at the river. I really want to tho. Going to the falls later on and to see the glow worms tomorrow. More pictures on that soon. Its nice here would like to come again during summer or some other time other then winter. That way the daytime would be longer n weather would be much bearable. Back to walking around n more blogging later on.
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* Finally HOLIDAY! *

2010-06-26T09:37:00.000+08:00

After the 5th semester then finals then with just about a week of resting time back to classes again for1 month intersession with classes every weekdays and then the final exam. Oh god it was like non stop classes, books, lecturers, tests since the beginning of the year. For now im taking sometime to rest. I've checked my results after waiting anxiously, its not great its just ok. Have got to work HARDER to improve my cgpa.Intersession paper made me felt like crying or maybe i did cried a bit. Haish..whatever it is.Its done now so moving on.10 more days before the next semester begins and im off for a holiday that is much needed.I've never been to New Zealand so im excited. People tell me its a beautiful place.Im looking forward to seeing their culture, beautiful scenery the food and of course shopping! Here i am yap yap and yapping away and my suitcase is not completely packed yet. Got to go. I've got 10 days and will definitely be making full use of it before it get back in time for the new semester.

22nd birthday

2010-06-07T02:22:00.000+08:00

Event : 22nd birthday

Wonderful surprise,loving family and dearest friends,sweet loving bf,great time celebrating with delicious food and cakes,beautiful presents.Had a really nice time celebrating it.Just the way i like it simple low key hanging out with the people i like to surround myself with. Except for the lizard part which actually in a way made it an interesting and hilarious birthday.Who knew i could scream at such a high pitch voice at the sight of a lizard.Lol. Over all i had a nice time celebrating my 22nd birthday,to mohd khairul azim,thanks for a wonderful birhtday i know it took a lot of effort in planning it.Thank you sayang : *

comfort food yum

2010-05-29T19:44:00.000+08:00

menu : roast chicken by my amazin boyfriend azim
spaghetti meatballs by me

outcome : the feeling of stuffed tummy with comfort food.
all smiles after enjoying the food and each others company : )

books, bowling,baking and cooking = happiness

2010-05-22T01:31:00.000+08:00

Among the few people and leaders that i look up to one of them is Nelson Mandela and i've been meaning to buy his biography book.But every time i go to the book store it slipped my mind.Luckily i didnt buy the book yet since i decided to take a look at tok ayah's bookshelves.Had a feeling that he would have it in his book collection.True enough he had it and when i asked permission to borrow it tok ayah said i can even keep it if i want to.so sweet of my grampa and he was also telling me what an interesting book it was and was one of the books that he actually finished reading.Currently reading it now and i get what tok ayah meant.With out a doubt an interesting book which i would definitely finish reading. Once i finish this book i can move on to my next book on my list.Soo many books over ambitious nk baca but always later distracted with other things pulak.haih..

Went for bowling, and i lost.Both times.Darn it! i had a feeling i was rusty.Cant even remember the last time i played bowling. But all that is nothing interesting compared to the final score which he got.117.Dh la menang and it just had to be my plate number pulak tu.LOL.

* cannot wait to make chocolate raspberry pavlova for abah and spaghetti meatballs for boo boo *

Happy mother's day mama!

2010-05-09T23:40:00.001+08:00

~lilies and daisies for mama~

To my amazing mom who has done so much for me in fact for all of us from they day she gave birth to us.the wonderful,loving,strong mother who I look up to and admire all her for all her sacrifices and all that she's done for us. No words can explain how much i loop up to her and thankful I am to have a mom like mine. *Lots n lots of love for my mom* and also to all the mothers out there today its their day~

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Here's to the 1st post from the bb

2010-05-06T20:08:00.000+08:00

Just found out I can blog from my bb. Tig's mommy tought me how. awesome!! making it even more convenient for me to babble babble at my blog : ) Today is the last day of studying for finals this semester. thank god its coming to an end.gonna miss the craziness during study group bt at the same time im glad that tomorrow is the last paper for this semester I'm in need of rest especially with the flu. Am mentally n physically tired.
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trial and error of baking

2010-04-04T13:26:00.000+08:00

two rounds of baking and finally got it right for the fudgy chocolate cupcake and the buttercream frosting. now enough of taking a break from the books and being busy in the kitchen.time to get back to the books and revisions.2 weeks plus from now is finals! oh god.

2010-03-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

its been seven years now since the fist time i started listening to the stokes. love their songs.everything about them.the beat,the guitars,the drums,the arrangement,the lyrics and front man's voice the way i see it he's got a unique low tone but he can also hit the high notes.overall i love the strokes and just can't get bored of their songs.its been quite sometime since i've heard anything new from them so im excited that julian has been working on a side project. And i actually like his latest single.i've been singing along to it for almost a month now.love it.

" anger is weakness patience is strengh "

things i like and things i dont like

2010-03-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

Mama and abah is back! i missed them while the were out of the country..and they brought back goodies for us.handbags and BB jelly covers.all sorts of colours.big smile : ) i'll get to change covers according to my mood,to match my outfit,depending on the event,so many choices for us to choose from and exchange. and also the icing on the cake is a new *handbag*

Also finaly i've found a dress for tigs.I can imagine her looking so cute in her new dress.Been looking around for sometime for a dress for her and the last time i looked it was either i didnt see anything that i liked or i liked the dress but it was way to expensive.this particular dress is just nice.

We went for lunch at UITM hotel but i was dissapointed with the food. It was deceiving in way that they said its buffet, but then again only the starters and the dessert was on the buffet table and as for the main dish we had to order it.Told mom and she said that means its not buffet,they should said that its a semi buffet.The dessert was a bummer too.. One thing that stand out was what our waitress said to us: we have two choices of drinks today, its either red sparkling drink or white sparkling drink.Funny.I felt like i was at a fine dinning restaurant in a movie when the waiter would ask if we would prefer red wine or white wine.Told mama,abah n ka che and they thot it was funny too. That was a nice touch.But personally i think they can improve on the starters and the dessert.The main course and the soup was not bad.

things i dont like:

at the moment from the news and newpapers i am really disturb that a father could give away his little girl by marrying her off to a 40 year old guy. so sickening. imagine how traumatized the girl is having to go through that. how can a parent do that to his own child when they are so many parents out there who wants kids so badly and here there are people just giving them away just like that.

i am also not liking the fact that people are throwing blood around in protest when there are loads of people who are in need of it.

finally i am angry to watch in the news seeing how people can be so cruel and oppresive attacking and ambushing innocent people in their homeland to chase them out of their homes and claim it as theirs. saddens me to see this. and as for the moment i find these three things disturbing.

sunday morning

2010-03-14T19:55:00.000+08:00

we did it! happy faces we completed the workout

Woke up early on a sunday morning to go work my butt off.LOL. Seriously im worried that i have been lazy and slacking off in working out and im starting to put on weight.Decided to take charge and start working out again.tho i didnt really jogging it was more of : jogged a bit then i felt so tired it was hard to breathe and i was panting so it was more of a combination of jogging and brisk walking.So nice and sweet of him to wake up early on a sunday morning to accompany me and be my personal trainer but i admit i was being a little bit bratty and kept on complaining and exagerating saying im going to faint.such a drama queen.haish.its ok next time around i shall try to jog all the way through.And it definately helped that the place was nice and peaceful.way different from taman aman.This place at TTDI makes it feels like as tho i was going for a nature walk surrounded by the forest.real nice cool fresh air in the morning.loved the place and im definately going again.

wishful thinking

2010-03-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

photograph by, miss ashley anne

I'll get over it i know i will.I'll stop my ship from sinking and i'll tell myself im over it. I refuse to give into my blues that's not how its going to be,cause im the king of wishful thinking.

berrylicious

2010-03-03T22:27:00.000+08:00

see i was half joking when i asked for a BB and plus i made a deal with myself to improve my grades 1st before i would ask abah for a new phone.bt when ka che was busy deciding on which phone she wants of course like always, on normal circumstances the other twin will also get the same or something that is of equivalent value to it.a berrylicious BB.honestly im not good with gadgets and all so i find it funny how i realise that im really slow in adjusting to it.i need time to explore,manual reading and of course websurfing to learn bout the it.

on a different note thank god for the time of the month,cz i honestly seriously cannot stand the pms-ing. im so easily irritated and almost always moody. its like i need to walk with a sign on my forehead "caution lady pms-ing".i always thot those printed shirts were hilarious now i know it is for real.this time around i was really easily irrtated with the constant mood swing.im really glad for now i think i will get back to the normal me slowly.

current list of random things

2010-02-20T01:08:00.000+08:00

My sister and i love this show.we can watch it over and over again til it drives our brother nuts cz he has to watch and listen to it too.so hilariously funny to see him get annoyed by us with wanting to watch it always.i don't usually really like musicals.but this one i like.

The one shop that i found a necklace that i really like,but i didnt have enough money at that time.and there was no more stock of it so its just the one that is there.i was bummed.haish sempat jgk nk insert sad story jap pulak..funny.anyways for him to surprise me with it is so sweet and thoughtful it really really makes me happy. Its simply beautiful : )

* wishlist *

1. A new phone.i would greatly appreciate a new one. hav to ask abah nicely

2. A new watch.would like a new one too.since i lost 1 of mine.

3. A new and different hairstyle.thinking of a change.kindda bored of the current 1.

4. A tone body.haish.gotta workout n stop lazying around

5. A new pair of sandals or shoes.just 1 that is simple and nice.

and before i even start dreaming of my wishlist,the things i have to do.

Priorities

1. Study for tests

2.Complete my assigments

3.Research.speaking of that..owh god i dont really have much clue on doing it.need materials.

4.Revisions.

5. Stay focused n improve my grades.

And once i have met my priorities,only then can i work on my wishlist.something to look foward to i guess. insyaAllah better and improved grades means i wont feel guilty for wanting and getting stuff on my wishlist.

holidays over,time to get to work!

{ a new chapter }

2010-02-15T01:08:00.000+08:00

by lisa congdon

The past is the past and if i were to still be reminded by it, it would only be just as though im reliving it over and over again.To forget painful things wont be that easy,to hold on to the it will also only make it harder for me to take time and actually realise and appreciate all the changes,and see that patience is well worth it to finally see the outcome of it now.From time to time now i will be reminded by the past and its definately not my favourite moments to be reminded of. But seeing how you've changed and how devoted you are in making up for whats happened in the past makes it easier to forget the painful moments.And when you said lets start a new chapter together, knowing that in this chapter of course there will be tough times but the assurance of you being by my side i agreed to start a new chapter together.

actions speak louder than words

2010-02-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

there is no need to speak,not even a word not even a sound just by your actions and your are able to hurt someone so badly.i hope you know what you've done, in wanting to really hurt someone you've done it really well.you've accomplished it.

keep on climbing till you reach the top

2010-01-16T00:28:00.000+08:00

Its a new year! still not to late to say Happy New Year!ok moving on.Its only the second week of 5th semester and already my to do list is growing longer and longer.I have made some goals that i want to achieve this semester.and i made a deal with myself that i am going to work my ass off to reach it.obviously the lazyness and distractions is always there and making it hard for me to stay focused.but i have to.seriously.i want to and most importantly i need to.and what a way to know that its not impossible to reach your goal even if at first you thought its impossible.Like...wall climbing.i really thought i couldnt reach the top.especially when i slipped a few times and when im halfway to the top and i looked down i got scared for a moment i felt like giving up and stop climbing.and i thought for a few minutes and i decided i should stop being such a scaredy cat whiny brat and just finish climbing.and it is well worth the sweat and pain.the feeling of reaching the top.it felt GREAT!Which is exactly what i should do.Keep on moving foward.

afterthoughts

2009-12-31T14:21:00.000+08:00

Goodbye 2009 hello 2010. its been one heck of a ride.

from accepting that failure its not the end of the world even though at that time it seemed like it was.(im such a drama queen) but it has also made me realise that people around me has been very supportive of me.and im very much thankful for it.

facing and staring at brick walls and thinking that it looks like there really is almost no way for me to crossover.and again i learned that if i give people time and have faith people can really surprise me.beyond my expectations.

seeing on how welcoming a new life into the world can change so many things and how hard it was for her.im really amazed by her strentgh in staying strong and being firm for what and how she wants it to be.and of course seeing how that experience has changed her, made me realise things happen for a reason and its up to you how you want to make do with the situation.good or bad.your choice.homie is a role model for standing up for herself.so strong even my parents are amazed by you.needless to say of course i am too.

i have learned that keeping things in really does not help at all.i might think at that time that if i keep it all it solves the issue.more like i was seriously in denial and trying to run away from it ada la..haish.good thing i have got it through my stubborness that that's nota solution.

and of course finally one of the changes is you.yes you boo.ur great.i really think you should know that i think you've been great and im gushing over you.hehehe.i am so lucky and thankful to have you :*

Alhamdulilah it has been a wothwhile ride and no regrets of the things i've been through it has thought me and i've learnt from it all.so long farewell 2009.

Random surprise

2009-12-22T17:16:00.000+08:00

By showing up and surprising me you changed my ordinary day to a great day.Getting to spend sometime just me and you in the afternoon walking around looking at random things,browsing through the antique store and just talking has made my day.Its the simple little things that made me smile : )

boo : ur gf loves you very much

~my abang's graduation~

2009-12-20T16:37:00.000+08:00

Congratulations abang! my big brother have graduated and now it's the beginning of a new chapter in your life.Once you've start working and you're earning your own money you can always take your sister out for treats.yeay! of course take mama and abah for treats first then your sisters.hehehe.i can see both mama and abah is happy that their eldest has graduated.now its your time to go out and venture out for new things and experiences out there.i pray for all the best for you abang.lots of love,fibs : )

she's a cutie pie

2009-12-20T16:11:00.000+08:00

An addition to the family,its a little baby girl.congratulations hommie! she's so tiny i was afraid to carry her the

the first time.i had to wait til she's a few days old til i had the courage to carry her.she's a cutie and of course i cant wait to spoil my niece with pretty dresses,toys and loads of candies and everything else i can think of later.As for now i'm on the lookout for a cute tiny little dress for my tiny little niece.an excuse and reason to go shopping~

evrything n everyone needs time n space

2009-12-16T23:46:00.000+08:00

It has become very clear to me now that the more i try to fix things the worse it gets,the harder i try the worst it gets.i am trying my best to fix it and clearly im not doing the right thing seeing as everything i've done n said is wrong.the way i see it for now, everyone is tense,sad,hurt,angry,annoyed,irritated and is literaly at the edge and will blow of any time soon.the same way as im feeling.so i should know better than to keep on trying to fix it when clearly im making it worse.my parents are worried and is dissapointed with me.and that makes me sad that i dissapointed them,my other half is going thru her own major life issues i should not burden her with mine,the one's close to me is extremely irritated with my efforts and i should back off now before i make it worse,im too distracted with my problems that lately i havent been the usual me for the him and i havent been there for him.and im hurt and im confuse and i know im not the only one with problems.im guessing others have enough on their plate already and to not want to deal with additional problems and issues.no matter how much i've cried will not fix things and i was told a good advice that crying will not make it better.so looks like whats best for now is everyone and everything needs time and space.

attachment : when boredom strikes.

2009-12-08T10:05:00.000+08:00

BORING.its very boring most of the time.there's not much to do and i honestly am not sure how am i going to fill up the practical training log book.been to court once,and aution once,it was intresting to see how things goes there.other than that most of the time in the office helping out with filing,or looking for cases, photocopying, typing out stuff,when there's work to do i get excited.which is unsual for me.exception this time around probably its bcos im so bored.whenever there's work given to me i gladly accept it.hahaha.i'd rather do work than play games and surf the net.after all what is attchment for then? 16 more days to go.haih..

sniffles

2009-11-23T00:34:00.000+08:00

been enjoying the semester holidays for about a week plus now and now on monday will be starting my attachment.im scared and im nervous.and to top it all i am having flu.this is not good..i hope my flu gets well soon before monday.which is tomorrow.going for my 1st day of attachment with a runny nose is so not good.please get well soon.i really dont want to be sitting in the office sneezing and blowing my nose non stop.what kind of 1st impression is that.and talk about embarrasing.shoo! sniffles

wish list

2009-11-05T20:14:00.000+08:00

photgraphy

I really want to learn how to take nice photos or it doesnt necessarily has to be nice just so long its unique and different i guess.Now..where to learn photography techniques? Online through blogs or i could go sign up for courses n classes.

sewing

And another thing to add on to my wish list, is to learn to sew. So i can sew clothes and pretty pretty dresses. Gotta look for a place that offer sewing classes and im gonna sign myself up in one. After all there's already the sewing machine in the house just sitting at the corner collecting dust and i've been wanting to learn to sew it makes sense, i can just use moms sewing machine.

And of course travel the world check out their galleries and look for beautiful scenic views.

3 am

2009-11-03T03:33:00.000+08:00

Goshh im having a mental breakdown and i cannot think..drank to much coffee and now even when i want to sleep i just cant seem to fall asleep.the gaps between the papers are to near and its really taking its toll on me.i'm really looking forward to the 9 days gap for the last paper.actually even better, im looking foward when final exam finishes.

I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything

You're my perfect little punching bag

But baby I don't mean it

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me

And I need you, I'm sorry

happy 21st birthday boo!!

2009-10-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

on a Sunday 25th October 2009 Mohd Khairul Azim turned 21. you might look young i can't deny that.but..fact is you are getting OLDER ; ) i liked that it was celebrated in a simple mellow way. just the way you like it.i hope u had a wonderful birthday syg.lots of love, xoxo.

inhale and exhale breathe = relieved

2009-10-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

pheew... after a few busy,hectic and eventful weeks i am able to sit back for a moment and breathe. done with all the tests and i'm glad tok ayah is well and the surgery went well Alhamdulilah. he seemed really happy to see us visitng him.felt bad i was to busy to call and check on tok ayah.but after visiting him and seeing he's doing well i'm relieved.and he was talking so much about so many things and was also telling jokes.didnt know my tok ayah is a funny person.i am also relieved about the issue about the freaky guy is finally solved. seriously i dont like to talk bad bout others but when someone who makes a big deal out of something that is not even a big deal and tries to take advantage of another person especially someone i love and care for it really makes me angry and i would start calling that person names.a suitable name. FREAK. and as for A and Z be strong k.i was touched by what you said the other day about its not about taking sides its about standing by the person who is right.i respect your principle and am really proud of it.whatever it is be tough and take good care of A.im here too if in case any of you are in need of help.A you're beautiful and a nice person.its hard but try to stay calm and keep ur head up through this.if stress it calls the need for us to have to bring you to a spa.just us girls ; ) actually thinking of it sounds best if we get to do that.whatever it is always remember you have friends around you who are there for you.overall as for now i am relieved from all the hecticness of test and assigments.but..just or a short while because finals is next weeeek.gosh reading,reading and more reading and memorizing.study hard everyone and gudluck for finals! and finally.

CONGRATULATIONS LIY! you've graduated and i wish you all the best in your future.

why ooh why am i procrastinating?

2009-10-16T18:26:00.000+08:00

it has been a looong tiring week. and i still have...

books all over the floor that needs to be rearranged
tests that i need to study for
final exam that i need to study for
case presentation that i need to prepare
to go to the bookstore to buy the statutes that i need

so why exactly am i lazying around having gossip girl marathon? i think other than me freaking out about final exam,tired and im thinking God..this is hard.(im always whining) but after i had a talk with my ka che. it made me think.im being such a self centered,ignorant,oblivious,selfish brat.I've come this far,the money,effort and time spent all this while and instead of being thankful for the opportunity that i have to further my studies im constantly whining.I've got to stop whinning and deal with it.nothing in life is easy.there are times in life when we've all felt discouraged. but that's life its all part of the journey. I've gotta stay focused and keep my head up. last semester sucked bcos i failed a paper.but what i realised is that it has made me want to work harder.as for now. its the weekend! time to rest.have a good weekend everyone~

not the mellow lazy sunday i was hoping for

2009-10-11T21:33:00.000+08:00

open houses and babysitting.i've officially had an overdose of rendang and all the other typical raya food.even mom noticed i hardly ate at the open house today.i would wait till i get back home and eat.oowh no thanx to rendang.no more for now.for babysitting i forgot how tiring it could be looking after a little one.so not the mellow sunday i was hoping for.wish i could lazy around and curl up with a good book or something.but seeing as exams is just round the corner lazying around is very unlikely to happen right now.i am freaking out inside.after what happened last semester repeating a paper.really dont want history to repeat itself.

2009-10-10T12:03:00.000+08:00

was it something that i said

or was it something that i did

or the combination of both that did me in

you know im hoping that you'll sing along

although its not your favourite song

dont wanna be there when theres nothing left to say

Eid Ul Fitr

2009-09-29T22:57:00.000+08:00

First and foremost selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin.sincerely seeking for forgiveness for all of my wrongdoings.hope everyone had a good raya. as for me as always the problem of overeating. especially everytime raya at kg.kelopes, rojak, soto, murtabak jawa,super hot & spicy sbhn sambal belacan,tanjung aru chicken wings and of course all the cookies and kuih raya.check for all that i've listed on my mind to eat back at kg.the only thing i cant check off my list is sago.didnt get the chance to eat that.bummer.whatever it is what im worried about now is that its only the 10th day of raya and i've already feel soo stuffed.i so have to control my eating or else i'll baloon up and all my clothes will be tight.OMG NIGHTMARE! im in need of an emergency fitness plan. pictures will be posted later.since some of it is with aqilah.

tiks: selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin.i hope u r still glowing jz like the way i saw u last time.hope raya in UK was ok.once you've settled down at ur place with classes and everything else please do remember to give me ur address.hugs n kisses.much love.

my head is much clearer now

2009-09-12T14:47:00.000+08:00

So happy after being done with so many tests and final submission for mooting. it was almost as if i was beginning to be a zombie.unable to get enough sleep.my head fill with so many things.constantly thinking bout tests n submission.staying up to revise then staying up all night just to complete doing mooting.even so i still feel that i sucked during my mooting presentation.it was such a last minute work that i even did a mistake in referring to the principle for the case.stupid silly silly.heish.anyhows tried to do my best in the moot court in aswering the questions and of course staying patient while i feel as though the judge was verbally attacking me.the past few weeks has been so tiring.everytime i get a chance to lie down i'll straight away fall asleep. during the past few weeks when i've been non-stop working on submission n studying for test it just made me realise that after the long tiring hours spend on studying and completing the submission work i could have done better.i mean im happy and glad i've finished it.but i would be much happier if i had worked harder.nevermind the lack of sleep so long as i feel satisfied that my work was good.i'll definately work harder for the next tests and of course for finals.as for now i want to rest.cant believe how time flies by so fast.puasa is almost over and raya is just round the corner.balik kampung this year.food back there is good.looking foward to that.

1 year

2009-09-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

happy anniversary boo

for
someone who understands me
who is able to tell what im feeling without me having to say a word
able to tolerate my indicisiveness
who would listen to me babble about all sorts of things
who would go the extra mile for me
who when im angry at him
wouldnt give up to find ways
to make me smile again
the person who can can cheer me up when im sad,
calm me down when im angry or when im worried.
who is able to deal with me and my mood swings
the person who i go to when im having a bad day
knowing that he would make me feel ok
or at least make me feel better then before
who would drive me around just because im bored
listen to me sing even tho i sound awful
the person who is so patient in dealing with my
all sorts of many moods and attitude
someone who would stay on the phn with me
stay up all nite just to keep me company
til i fall asleep
the person who i can trust enough
to be able to let my guard down and be as silly as i want to be
and as spoilt as i want to be
the one and only person.my boo.
happy anniversary.i love you boo.

im officially tonsiless

2009-08-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

gift courtesy of mashi,ayumi,izyan,afif n wawa

last monday morning around 8 something almost 9 i think as i doze off after being given sufficient amount of anesthesia my tonsils have been removed.making me now tonsiless.and the pain of the surgery was..let me see its like someone forced a large dry rough stone thru my throat and also used sand paper to scrape thru my throat.hurts so much.and i was scared too after surgery as they were about to bring me back to my room i vomited and i saw blood on my hospital gown.i guess im sensative to the general anesthesia.i couldnt speak and was in so much pain i cried.and later on fell asleep.i woke up around five something i think and i could speak slowly.glad i could speak.for now im still on soft food diet.im slowly forcing my self to start eating solid food.im starting with the soft ones for now.i still cant eat anything that's hot in temperature and hot as in spicy.and obviously no normal food yet as it still hurts.for now i just look.hehehe.i was so touched when i got out of surgery i saw my mama and abah and also i saw tok and tok ayah.they came to see to make sure the surgery went ok.after dat my boo and danial came.i was so happy i talked so much.danial's mommy came too.with cookies.it so nice of her.and i was so suprised to see danials mom she looks young.i wonder what's her secret for awet muda..cookies are still sealed untill i've recovered and i can eat them.hehehe.not long after dat my kakak qilah came and later that evening the jing bam gang.they are like the clowns at the children's ward.they were making so much jokes.i laughed even tho it hurts.cant help it.later at night hommie n izzati came while family went for dinner.was held at hospital jz overnight.and for now i am resting a lot at home to recover from my surgery.sleep..sleep..and more sleep : )

im getting my tonsils remove

2009-08-17T00:19:00.001+08:00

my tonsils have been swollen for 3 weeks in a row now so went to octor again..and doctor referred me to see ENT specialist and the specialist has advised me to remove my tonsils.well i have been contemplating that coz it hurts so much til i cant do my daily stuff.so anyhows 2mrws the surgery and im scared.i've never had any type or surgery.im praying that everything goes weel 2mrw.insya'Allah.gotta wake up early morning 2mrw coz i chose the 1st slot for 2mrws surgery.ok im off for now.updates on post opt later.

painful tonsils and dreaming of flowers

2009-08-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

i've been on and off sick.my tonsil is giving me problems.the moment it starts to swell up i'll be in pain like crazy.even when im sitting still not moving a muscle. it still hurts rite down to my neck and back.have been going to the doctor twice and for now its getting better.please stay this way.i cant stand it when it swells up it'll hurt and i'll be down with fever.even grandpa said i look sick.i guess its because im usually cheerful and all and this time around i didnt talk much.grandma told me to go take a nap so i ended up falling asleep on the couch on a sunday afternoon while my toks and my family went fishing at the backyard..didnt get a chance to join i was snoozing..a random tought.i was thinking of putting fresh flowers in my room and in the house.coz i remembered i used to go to this place where they sell loads and loads of fresh flowes.the moment u step in there its smells so nice and the flowers are so pretty u'd wish ur house smells dat nice and has a sight of beautiful flowers.i want my room and to be like that place. yeah i wish..anyhows so 2mrw is monday.morning class gotta wake up early avoid the traffic jam and the joys of looking for parking.

holiday again?

2009-07-27T16:12:00.000+08:00

semester jz started and we've only had 3 weeks of classes and we're back on holidays again.so the administrators have decided to give us all an early semester holiday.im guessing the h1n1 is really serious or before it gets worse they've decided to close the uni for a week.im hoping for the best that everyone involveld is doing their very best to control the virus.as for me this 1 week of holidays calls for me hanging around the house and lazying around.im sensing that im about to start making list of things i'd want to do during the 1 week holiday..

xexy merah

2009-07-07T21:22:00.000+08:00

*happy 21st princess alia*

puteri alia turns 21.sorry lia i cant help you stop the clock.i dont have that kind of power in me.hehehe.welcome to the club lia.i know you feel older now.wishing you the all best and may Allah bless you.you're my oldest friend and you know we love you ; ). roadtrip was fun.tired from laughing a lot.especially the xexy and merah incident.tho the creepy incident seriously also really scared me.overall enjoyed it.we should plan on more roadtrips.can go further and go explore more place : )

urbanscapes

2009-06-29T01:03:00.000+08:00

earliar during the day it was so very hot.but overall it was ok.the performances was good.tho i could only stayed for half of it.cz we were jz really2 tired.shopping was fun.they had so many booths selling loads of stuff.mostly stuff for girls tho.pity the boys not much stuff for them.hehehe.i bought two more handbags.i thought a lot if i should buy it or not.and i ended up buying it.i like the colour.scared mama bising.so i decided to leave the bags in my car.i have a slight tiny problem when it comes to shopping.particularly when it comes to handbags.i love to shop.haish...not good.anyways on a different topic saw one of the short movies.the one bout the soul was good.i get the message.if you're a person who's so heartless it would be just as tho u have no soul.cz slowly you'll jz lose your soul.so even if you were planning on selling your soul it'll be worthless if the person is jz a heartless person.hmm it got me thinking jgk..deep.it all comes down to what kind of a person are we all trully?i like the message the movie makers had to tell.watch some of the stand up comedians.or it was something like dat.didn't quite like some of the jokes tho..cz the jokes were kindda i would think as harsh and insensative.they had some fire performance and didgeridoo at night.liked that.day ended with slight car confusion by aqilah.silly funny kakak of mine.then went back home soo tired and went straight to sleep.

lagi lagi MACET.

2009-06-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

it's like the roads are forever jammed packed with cars.everywhere there you'll get stuck in traffic jam.or as the local says macet.jakarta and bandung was good.i would go there again.food was good,people were nice although just that the place is not as clean as back home,traffic is bad. i wouldn't want to drive there,and the city air is quite polluted.other than that it was okay.jakarta not much to shop around.unless just to buy stuff like material to make baju kurung and kebaya,their kebaya's there are really nice.so many shops selling materials.lots of nice ones too.boys and girls,men and women would like the shopping experience at bandung.where the old dutch houses used to be.best place to go shop is there where the bungalow houses have been converted to shops.so many bungalow houses with stuff from the states.its factory outlet stuff.price not bad too.and if ever in bandung.do go to this restaurant up the hill.kampung daun.the road to get there is quite bad.but it's well worth it once you reach the place.night time would be the best time to go.when the candles are lit and there'll be bonfire and all.beautiful place.with the waterfall.highly recommend it.it gets cold tho at night.if i knew i would have brought along a cardigan.overall i was happy there.after doing all those shopping ladies should go to the spa.to go relax and get pampered.just that if you're not used to being massage tell the masseuse that.to prevent body ache.unlike me i didn't tell her and it kindda hurt a bit..how ironic.nak relax but ended up aching a bit.funny.

fruit punch or rojak?

2009-06-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

so many to blog about in one post.so its like a rojak or a fruit punch.yeah its a weird metaphor but i think thats how i would put it.ok 1st and foremost
im 21!!! i've reached the age of legality.but honestly despite me being 21 already i still feel like i still have loads loads loads more stuff to learn about.like till now i still feel im constantly figuring out new things.well like people say its part of the process day to day thing.my hope for now is that if i am going to change that it would not be change for the worst.but change for the better. other than that life's a ride.there'll be ups and downs.what i've learn is the important part is how i deal with the ups and down

cancel new zealand.going to indonesia.
i was really sad that we had to cancel the trip to new zealand because of the swine flew.im going crazy of boredom staying at home dah..so mom decided to arrange for trip to jakarta and bandung. hope it'll be fun.i've been to bali a couple of times.nice place.so really hoping jakarta n bandung would be great too.

and the life drama
there'll be all sorts of drama in everyones lives.what i know on how to deal with it is to keep ur family and close frens and people we care the most about close to us.they are the ones who'll be there during the bad and good times.

randomness: how to get a hot body.
mann its tough to get a hot body.i envy jessica alba's body.before and even aftr she had a kid she's still hot.here i am jogging around but duh la kn obviously it takes more than that.sigh.. i'll have to stay motivated and constantly drag myself up and stop lazying around.instead exercise.afterall it is healthy.

ok im off for now.will blog more when i get back.

i feel like rolling over and die..okay or maybe juz roll under my blanket and juz stay there.

2009-05-12T19:32:00.000+08:00

owh mann i'm so dramatic but seriously things are hard and the more i try to make it better the worse it gets.i guess maybe im just the worst person on earth right now.feels like i'm hurting people when that is not my intention,feels like i make things worse when im trying to make it ok and it feels like i'm being inconsiderate of other people's feelings when i actually really care for them.which overall i guess makes me an inconsiderate,selfish,self-centered,dramatic,person. i guess the best i can do right know is just lay low since my effort of trying to make things better seems to not work.my fault jugak.because right know i think whats best is to give space and give it time when instead i keep on trying so hard to fix it.owh mann again i can be given the award for worst person and im not being sarcastic..tho im glad i did get to make it to liy's fashion show.beautiful design especially the long dress.so cantik.proud of you babe! : ) sorry friends i balik awal.i juz went to see liy's design je.not in the mood sangat. so once i saw her designs i went back home.congrats liy! in an attempt to not make myself feel so down i've made lists.a to do list and a wish list.

.things to do.
rearrange my room's furniture
reorganize closet
get a new haircut
return books to library
finish reading books on my booklist

*wish list*
buy a plant.daisy?
visit the planetarium
learn techniques to draw/sketch and paint
to get to meet up with t
watch 500 days of summer i heart chick flicks
watch talentime aina says its really good
learn to solve the rubiks cube

PMS can be such a..

2009-05-03T20:43:00.000+08:00

eiysh on days of pms-ing it can be such a pain.dah la nk act all moody n all.i myself geram with myself k.and as usual i'll b all emo2 n moody2 with people closest n around me.im sorry people.. jz ignore the moodyness.anyhows on a different topic.2mrw is the last paper.last day of finals this semester.whoah after dat holiday.actually not yet.as usual i'll be helping aqilah out.then holidays.felt like 3rd semester flew by fast.owh well k gtg.2mrw i've got paper and i'm here blogging pulak.til next time.

finals!

2009-04-11T22:33:00.000+08:00

wow so last week was the last week for all the classes.so tiring with a bunch of tests and assigments.now its study week and there's still 2 more assigments to do.and finals is next next week.im scared.duh la kan..everyone is scared of finals.next month is liys fashion show.i wanna go.dah la its her final semester n all.owh well.other than that this weekend didnt go to toks house.bummer.tak la dpt spike my little cousins drink.spike it as in put gassy drinks in their glass.coz they're not allowed to drink it.kindda funny that the little one really like those gassy drinks.she cute when shes happy dpt drink it.hahaha.ok i gtg.i've got to do assgments n study.n yet im procrastinating lg..

normalcies..what?

2009-03-29T22:19:00.000+08:00

ok i've had a collection of movies in my laptop.hmm well ok a few movies but i cant seem to watch it.cz rupa rupanya my laptop does not hav the program that can play movies.i usually get someone to help me with these computer stuff..silly me dah lama i've been using this laptop i jz realised that i can jz download it from the web.which i jz did jz now.so now i can watch movies on my laptop.yeay! i've also washed n cleaned my car n rearranged all my books and things in the room.i find it that i can think clearly when all my stuff are neatly arranged.a bit mcm monk the eccentric detective.yup..a bit weird.

funny story bout earth hour
yesterday was the day we were all encouraged to swith off all our lights for one hour.i was in on it.i even had candles ready to lit during earth hour.however that night we went out for dinner.so before we went out i told the maid to switch off all the lights from 8.30 - 9.30. i mentiond it to her more than 3 times i think..and while we were having dinner at the restaurant i was secretly wishing that the restaurant wil switch off all their lights too.which they didn't.bummer. hilariously when we got home from dinner the whole house was in darkness.i was happy cos the new maid a bit susah nk paham what we say.so i guess she jz decided to switch off all the lights the whole night.heheheh.when we got home almost 11 mom was so shocked.cz it was so dark.the 1st thing she did was to called out my name.cz it was my idea to ask the maid to swith off all the lights.hey it is fr a good cause..earth hour : )

china,classes n ldk.

2009-03-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

ldk on a saturday is just plain boring.having to be in the class for one whole day doing silly activities.maybe if the activities were interesting it wont be so sucky.anyhow sooooo glad its over.yeay! no more ldk.trip to china was ok.i'll put up the pictures if i feel like it.(lama nak tunggu load.)1st time going to china.they sure do eat loads of pork.its like everywhere.can't stand the smell of their food.people there tend to talk really loudly.just below the level of shouting.place overall ok la...byk jinjang stuff.but if you really look you can find some nice stuff.a bit hard to look for.but there are nice things.mostly girlie stuff.the weather was ok.temperature i think was around 20 ish degree.the last 2 days i was there it was i think around 11 or 12 degree.the last few days were kindda cold.the part i couldnt forget was my food poisoning from eating the food over there.the pain was so torturing.so glad i've recovered and i'm well now.so.. i still have another 2 more tests to sit for and i think another 1 more test next week.looks like they will be a few tests next week.owh n presentation jgk.i hope i do good.ok till next time.have a nice weekend~

overwhelm

2009-02-23T21:58:00.000+08:00

im up n awake.i knoe its early.monday morning pulak 2 bgn awal.semangat sgt..yea la 2.so not..feel down n draggy.mayb its monday blues.things are so overwhelming lately.if its a test for me which i think it is.i'm trying and doing my best to get through this.

went to watch mooting at UM last friday and there was a moment when it hit me and it made me think can i do that? i honestly freaked out a bit watching them moot in the lecture theater.talked about it later with zella and mashi and they said they were thinking the same thing jgk..mooting made us think and realise that we still have loads to seriously learn about.

as for about family matters.i knoe everyone is doing their best to deal with it,move on and stay strong.insya'Allah everything will b okay n stay ok.i knoe i'm the weak one in the family always have been.i pity abg arif n aqilah always have to b strong for me.my rock n backbone.im learning to b strong for the family.i will for our family's sake.

about frens.

lala-the busy one.its hectic fr u.nk meet up before ur sem starts..nnt lg u busy.

alia- i knoe its tough what ur going thru.but like we talked bout.ada hikmah.plus if stress2 besides zarif i'm here too n we have a goal to reach.

liy- its ur final sem.all out.do ur best.we all knoe u can.DL again babe.make us proud.igt our deal.

tiks- its been long x jumpa n im yet to finish reading da book i borrowed from u.i wanna meet up.miss u.

farah- ur back!about time.i knoe those in germany will miss u.but ktorang kt sini lg miss u.

najlaa -lg la.lama sgt x talk bout all the sillyness n craziness.

nisha -dah mcm off the radar.tiks we soo have to go kidnap her so she'll have no choice.

bonjella-i knoe ur in a tough situation at the moment.i can see it.whatever it is i'm here for u like you are when i need u.

about my kakak
focus n study hard k.

about my dear t
i'm wondering if its me doing things wrong and if so what im doing wrong.i miss so much us talking about anything and everything.us laughing.me being silly with you.i heart you t and i miss you.

about my studies
man ooo man..the goal.yup tho its agk susah i will do my best.

tho its all overwhelming these are the people and things i care the most about and for that
reason i'll bear with it.

im giving in and letting it slide

2009-02-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

im just really bummed and i've decided i'm just gonna let it all slide.i dont have the strength for it.its just so tiring to deal with all this.so tired.and actually kindda sick of it and buat sakit hati.do la whatever that makes you happy.whats weird is you can do something like that.even when it hurts another person.i really dont understand how there are people like this in the world.i guess thats life.whatever thats happening right now i guess there is a reason for it...i just believe in the way karma works.i've really tried my very best to deal with it.you are still like that jgk..and worst part is its hurting me.so im giving in.

arc-en-ciel

2009-01-29T04:32:00.000+08:00

il y a toujours un-arc-en-ciel apres la pluie

the start of 3rd sem

2009-01-19T00:08:00.000+08:00

i felt so disorganised for the past 3 weeks.like everything around me is in fast circling motion.ok im kindda talking weirdly.but that was how i felt.i hate that i've been freaking out a lot lately.other den that lecturers seem ok.a bit strict. i dont wanna jinx it so i wont say much.moms been in the hospital for a week.she's a lot better now.doc said she shud b discharge soon.good to knoe.for third sem the classes r hmm well...put it this way.its lecture n tutorial.you go.listen n learn.kindda dull at times.i guess its a mind set thing.if i see it as boring den it'll b boring.duh..i wanna find a good book to read.it's been quite some time since i've read a good book.shud look for one.i wanna sketch and paint too.like i have the time la kan..i shud find the time for dat too.

back from egypt.halas.

2008-12-29T19:06:00.000+08:00

the trip was interesting in its own way.frankly speaking let me put it this way its a once in a lifetime kindda thing.i only enjoyed some parts of it.the place is like frozen in time.its like i transported back to the past say 20 or 30 years back.look around and you'll see building half completed and half not completed.and the country's hygiene is kindda neglected.when in egypt:while walking look down.most times there's poop either from the horses or camels.the traffic and the way they drive scares me.and as for the sleeper train my advice would be go for only if ur in for an adventure and dont mind being uncomfortable for 12-13 hours straight.
the things i liked were the cruise along the nile river.the pyramid of course and the ancient ruins.and also their library at alexandria.beautiful.

The Spinx and the Pyramids

Edfu temple

Al-Deir Al Bahari temple

Kom Ombo temple

Train station

wait for it...

BOO

on the cruise

hot air baloons

abah dgn hoodie n heart sunglasses.funny.hehehe.

Library at Alexandria

at the bazaars

on a different note.im kindda scared semester is about to start.i'm half ready half not.my result for last semester was bad.and i'm scared bout my classes.hope it'll be fine.insyaAllah.aqilah has gone back to Shah Alam.*all the best for the new semester* i've got loads of things to do bfr semester starts.

my books needs to be arranged.its not arranged the rite way.

my clothes needs to be folded/iron and arranged.

my rooms needs tidying up.

unpack all the things from my suitcase

gotta make an appointment to sent my car for service.

buy mama's present.

pay fees

check class timetable

remember to breath.not to b too scared bout the new semester.

i was rummaging through my piles of books and papers in the study room and found these quotes.soo long but i think its worth the time to read.theres actually a few but i'll jz write two.kindda appropriate in starting new semester and ushering the new year.

there is a tide in the affairs of men which taken the fload,leads on fortune omitted,all the voyage of their life is bound in shallows and in miseries, on such a full sea are we now afloat.and we must take the current whent it serves or lose the ventures before us

-wlilliam shakespeare,julias ceaser-

life is to short,grudges are a waste of perfect happiness,laugh when you can apologize when you should,love deeply and forgive quickly have no regrets.life is too short to be unhappy,you have to take the good with the bad,smile when you're unhappy,love what you got and always remember what you have,always forgive but never forget and learn from your mistakes

-unknown-

found this on one of the artsy sites.nice.

wow super loong post.i was actually trying to fill up the space below.but its like infinity.it goes on and on.so whateverla.biar ada space.nampak kindda weird.but i dont knoe wat's up with this posting kali ni.

me blabbering

2008-12-12T17:45:00.000+08:00

im now officially the maid and gardener.lol.yeah okay i know my friends would so laugh but someone has gotta do it rite? or else the house is going to be a crazy mess.aqilah finds it funny seeing me sweeping not only inside the house but also sweeping the yard.i assume she finds it so interesting to the point that she wanted to take a picture of me sweeping.owh geez im glad i amused her.earliar today went to run errands with aqilah.drove by kt.missed a junction so decided to take a detour and drive around.i remembered the days when i was still in primary school.literally the whole of kt was our playground.so funny.i realise that i tend to forget things that i have to do and want.so i'm making a list of randomweirdstuff.

wish list/to do list

i need and want new curtains
in need of new bedsheets as well
i want new handbag(s)
i so should learn how to use the dslr
i should trim my hair its kindda out of shape
i should also resume with my t-shirt making
have to make new board for my earrings
wishing for a carpenter to remove the old cupboard and build new ones
i want to bake brownies

eventful weekend

2008-12-08T10:53:00.000+08:00

so it was kindda crazy the past few days with the shooting going on in the house. lights.camera. action!loads of people.with the crew n all it felt like we had an open house.what i'm really surprised by is how friendly the actors are.i would have thought they'd b busy minding their own business n all.but its nice to know that they're nice and friendly bunch of people. and it was kindda interesting to watch the process of making a drama.now i know for juz one scene they do like gabazillion takes.from many different angles.on a different topic.tok called juz now nk ajak make ketupat with her.so cute.but there are relatives coming over tonite.so x sempat nk tolong my grandma..
*congratulations to faizil and norhayati*.she seem nice and sweet.to my cousin and cousin in law best wishes and semoga bahagia sepanjang hayat :)

yeay! my holidays has started : )

2008-11-25T00:32:00.000+08:00

my holidays had actually started like weeks n weeks ago but today onwards bru i get to enjoy my holidays since the review n assesment dah habis.thank god..now all archi students should b happy since they can sleep all day for the sleeping hours that they had to sacrifice.and as for me no longer being aqilah's assistant.the hours of my time i've spent helping out and in which most of the time i have no clue what i'm doing or what they're talking about. im glad now i get to do what i want to do and plus i get to sleep n wake up at whatever time i want to.yeay! please no more eye bags..

fadli's modal.i like the design of the roof.

japanese spa.nice.i forgot who designed this modal.

wafi's hawaian spa.the detailing n all lawa2.

nadrah's safari design.cantik.

took a sneak peak at part 7's work.

and this is what one of the part 7's modal looks like.

unlike archi students im not used to not getting enough sleep.

so i jz sleep anywhere i can.aqilah find me weird cz she's already so

used to not getting enough sleep.

one of the part 5's brought cupcakes.

the message across the cupcakes was to visit this site.

a site for charity.by visiting the blogs you are donating n the

proceeds are for charity.

* aqilah hang in there k i know n we all know ur strong n insya'Allah it'll b okay..

*happy for liy she has finally moved in her newly renovated house.home sweet home for her.

* congrats to abg man on his job promotion.

i feel for the archi students

2008-11-17T23:31:00.000+08:00

i began helping aqilah with my usual sense of humor,i act all goofy n funny since she's all stressed up and tired. goofiness does help.like hours later i've got glue on hair,paint on my fingers,my back aches,the place is a crazy mess and i'm juz tired..and to top it all i gotta drive 2mrw cz aqilah is wayy tired and deprived of sleep.and that's juz me helping out a bit je.i pity her..i can't imagine how tired aqilah is.and how tired the other archi students are.i always seem to be amazed by them.once their final review is finished i bet all they want is to chill n relax..like realllyy relax.talking bout that once i've finish helping aqilah i so want time to do my stuff pulak 2.i miss t n i miss chilling.owhhh i'm tired..ok gtg wake aqilah up then we gotta continue finishing the modal.

done with exam.finito.now holidays has begun :)

2008-11-14T14:38:00.000+08:00

im done with the super hard final exam.time to chill since holiday has started yeay.juz that thing is i kindda get bored most of the times donno wat to do with the free time.aqilahs holiday still has not started she still has final submission.and i'm her beverage girl.milo,coffee,what else whatever that comes to her mind i guess.membusykan myself as her assistant..as usual like every semester. bonjella!! twilight will b the showing at the movies soon.yeay.its not series mcm gossip girls n all.its a movie.those who have read the book mesti excited.which gives me an idea.i should finish reading the books that i've bought.i think i have 3 books that i've yet to finish reading.im currently having something like a writers block.im idealess on how to rearrange the furniture in my room.owh well i'll keep on arranging and rearranging till i like how it looks i guess.it's been awhile since i've had time to hangout with the girls.everyone pon busy.liy breakfast jom..when ur finish with ur designs.n lala too.n alia i bet has loads of stories.okay..nnt when we all meet up all sorts of stories will klua.entertaining n intresting :)

*i miss tootsie..*

kindda agree with izzie....

2008-11-05T13:20:00.000+08:00

final exam is so hard.darn it.thank god there's a few days gap before the next 2 paper.so need to chill then continue revision for the remaining papers.baru je igt nk movie marathon with aqilah then she said i need to help her run her errands since she's going back to shah alam today.so now its just me and the maid at home.watched 90210 just now.typical american teenagers series.somethin like the oc+laguna beach+the hills+gossip girl= beverly hills 90210 dont really like it. story line about rich kids and their dramas.kindda overrrated. kena ada mood nak tgk those type of shows.not in the mood for richkidsdramas..anyways on a different topic most people are off the radar lately everyone busy with finals n all i miss the sillyness

crazysillyness

those two that are always talking about artndesign

*gudluck* aqilah for ur crucial papers.u can do it!

selamat hari raya aidilfitri maaf zahit & batin

2008-10-04T22:39:00.001+08:00

i've been lazy to blog and now i've got loads to blog about..first and foremost it's a bit belated but still tak la lambat sgt to take this chance to wish my family friends and all muslims selamat hari raya aidilfitri maaf zahir dan batin.sorry for any wrongdoings and mistakes.this year raya my family and i ber raya over here.ktorang tak balik kampung this time around.kindda sad cos raya back in kampung best. in other words feel the raya mood.when all the family members gather mmg kecoh hehehe.and of course to play foreworks back in kg best cos i get to play with my cousins and all ramai2.so this year raya here i spent my 1st day raya the whole day at toks hanging around there.i even slept in the afternoon.hehehe.second day raya my cousins from johor came over to visit us.we played mercun.it was fun.especially being entertained by my cute lil cousin sofia.so cute.day after that we visited the neighbours.today mama brought me to toks house to help and learn make ketupat palas.they say i'm the apprentice.hehehe.the ketupats that i made so tak cantik compared to the ones tok and mama made.i laughed je while i was folding the ketupat cos dah la i'm left handed so mmg susah sikit cos i do it terbalik compared to the way mama and tok make their ketupat.it was interesting.hehehe.
other than that other stuff to blog about
* i have been lazying around this sem.better start studying.i'm scared.tau pon takut.tapi
kindda malas2 skit lagi.
* need to photocopy the notes i got from zella.all kedai photostat kt sh alam tutup.duh..its
raya.
* do my bel report and prepare for presentation and also french expose.qiqi said i'm enjoying
my raya break and being lazy cos i'm not doing my work.hahaha.okay..i'll do it later..
* i wanna join qiqi clothes shopping.i wanna give away my clothes that i dont wear anymore
and buy new clothes
* i wanna buy another handbag.if mom knows mesti mama bising.hehehe.
* rearrange my room.haiya..bila nk rearrange nie.suppose to change bed and keluarkan the
sofa from my room and of course nk rearrange furniture in my room balik.waiting for abg
arif nie..
* i think i want new curtains for my room.boring dah la curtain nie.i think i've been using this
curtain since i was in form two.nk change style n colour.i prefer the long type.
* i need new eye liner.i went to one watson and two guardians the ones nearby my house
semua takde the eyeliner i want.
* its 1 month dah..i'm happy :) Alhamdulillah.take it one step at a time.i heart you..

rollercoaster ride~

2008-09-05T14:49:00.000+08:00

wow i've been really busy lately and kindda preoccupied with some things that i havent been bloggin.let me use this chance to wish all muslims selamat meyambut ramadhan and happy fasting~other then that life for the past few weeks was a rollercoaster ride for me.Alhamdulillah i'm happy things are getting better now.lala,liy,zella,anis,aze and of course aqilah n her best friend faez jgk a.ka mcm my brother thanx for being there for me you guys mean a lot to me.on a different topic as for my studies i have loads of work to do.reading and studying.busy...busy... yesterday was mama n abah's 28th anniversary.hehehe.Alhamdulillah to that jgk..abah bought mama flowers.so pretty.i wanna take a picture of it but i donno where the dslr is.nnt la.the flowers are juz about to start bloom jgk.so when i take later pon it'll b nice jgk coz by then the flowers dah bloom.hehehe.ok.that's all for now~

old skool+new skool

2008-08-26T00:51:00.000+08:00

i watched rocky balboa juz now.the latest one.big bro switched it on and then he went and played hellicopter plak..hahaha.since i was in front of the tv so i watched it sampai habis.best.when i was around 5 or 6 years old my siblings,my cousins and i we all used to watched rocky.the 1st 2nd and 3rd rocky.we were still small dah pandai nak tengok action movie.we were kindda weird.in a way kindda weird that we knew and can appreciate that kind of movie.hehehe.anyways it's a smart movie.cool...

Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!

Rocky BalboaSpeaking to his son in Rocky Balboa (2006)

this is an excellent quote.

good morning~

2008-08-08T09:18:00.000+08:00

i love the way you say good morning :)

The Way I Am-by ingrid michaelson
If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.
Cuz I love the way you say good morning.

And you take me the way I am.
If you are chilly, here take my sweater.

Your head is aching, I'll make it better.
Cuz I love the way you call me baby.

And you take me the way I am.
I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.

Sew on patches to all you tear.
Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.

And you take me the way I am.

You take me the way I am.

You take me the way I am

the long overdue post.

2008-08-08T08:13:00.000+08:00

i've been busy and kindda lazy to blog.soo much has happened

last week i went to archifest.interesting.this semester their performance is all in acoustic version.cool.n there was this peformance something like a mime ish like kindda dance.smart.
went to watch videos made by the archi students too.they make good videos.hilariously funny.especially the part 3 nya i think the title is calling me gaya.the dangdut video pon funny.owh n their version of pump it too.hahaha.
then i also went to their archikite at bagan lalang.it rained a bit earlier on.later on it was realllly hot.it was fun.they had so many activities.the traditional games part was cool.they made kites and flew them there.i saw some unique designs.i wanted to fly a kite too hehehe. so i bought one from a shop by the beach and attempted to fly mine.it hardly flew.hahaha.
on a different topic..i got a new laptop.yeay! hehehe.abah gave me a new laptop :) tho right now i'm using mama's laptop.cz mine is downstairs.since mama's laptop is upstairs i use mama's laptop.
2 weeks ago my sayang buffy died.i miss buffy soo much...may buffy rest in peace.she was my first cat and the one i love the most.
i think it's been a month dah since second semester..time flies by so fast.next week there'll be tests.whoah gotta study.
owh yah n for my co curriculum i dpt register in swimming.hehehe.once a week i go fr swimming.hahaha.

i've been so busy lately i havent had the time to meet up with my friends..i wanna go out for drinks with tiks,lala,alia,liy.so much to talk bout.as usual...hehehe.nnt when aqilah n me are free i wanna meet up with them.yesterday i had my mock trial.i was the magistrate.a clowny one cz i hardly knew what i was suppose to do.hahaha.lecturer said it was a good try. jz dat i left out some important points..hehehe.my 1st mock trial.k dat's all for now.bye!!

second week of second semester,co-curriculum registration confussion and a new ride~

2008-07-18T00:03:00.000+08:00

its the second week of the new semester.i'm in second semester now.had tort and contract tutotrial today.Tort was ok.first tutorial today.tumpang achim.there were confussion bout the time-table.so we were late to class.we just laughed in the car.i find the confussion to b funny.hahaha.i kindda understand tort more then contract. honestly speaking i don't really understantd contract.i kindda find it hard.just now at tutorial i was kindda lost.then towards the end i understood what the lecturer was explaining.hopefully i will b able to pick it up fast.so i can understand n get good grades.insya'Allah.so far i understand what the lecturer is teaching.and hmm well what i can say is i'm gonna work hard like gabazillion times harder this sem..seriously.for the sake of my grades,my studies, basically my future.for co-curriculum i wanted to join swimming but both the groups are full.i went to the co-curriculum registration thinggie last saturday and went to the swimming registration.i wrote my name.but i'm still not able to register at student portal.it's so confusing. Aaa what co-curriculum am i in? i donno.i want to join swimming.i'm confused now..i'm going to shah alam 2mrw to settle it...the new car arrived today.while i was in contract abah called.he told me to balik rumah with aqilah.at first i was gonna balik with achim.when i reahed home abah said i'm getting my car.yay!!half an hour later my new car arrived.i'm so happy i have a car.hehehe.Alhamdulillah..:) ok i'm sleepy so i'm off to bed.gudnite~

saturday at urbanscapes and picnic at the park

2008-07-02T01:40:00.000+08:00

juz now we went for a picnic at a park right smack in the middle of the city.lols.ok it was at the park at klcc.we picked an area nearby the pond/pool and had our picnic there.it was nice.nasib baik it didn't rain.so we ate.chill and took lots of photos.hehehe.as usual.

last saturday was the urbanscape event.it's an event of fashion.art.music. all together at one

time.it was at klpac.there were stalls selling cute stuffs,prettycoolawesome clothes.i saw a few tops,t-shirt and dresses that i liked but i didn't buy any.liy and aqilah bought dresses.i bought books from wondermilk.and another book from another one of the stalls.for those who dont know i collect books.hehehe.i have a collection of books.i like books that has nice cover. other then that there was performances at the lake.so we went and watch the performances there.then we went and see the exhabition inside.some cool stuff.i liked the one with the blocks. then we went and watch the short indiependent film.we watched ciplak.some parts kindda draggy other then that it was kindda good and funny too.after watching the short film went to the stage where the independent artists are performing.estrella's performance was awesome,so was pure vibration.we get to chill and watch the performance and the weather was good too.stayed there till 11 something then we went home.cos we were juz realllly tired.as usual i'll post the pictures later cos i still haven't gotten them yet.

registration confusiooonnnss

2008-06-24T15:02:00.000+08:00

okay one more week left of holidays and then semester is gonna start back.and registration has begun and eiysh...the confusion of registration.dah register for one class and dah ok then class clash dengan ctu pulak..and now bila nak rearrange class so tak clash most of the classes dah penuh pulak and class yg ada pon clash jugak.kindda tiring and headache nak figure out bout registration of classes ni.so for now all law subjects dah register and yg belum register is juz co-curriculum,bel,ctu,and language.okay..nnt we'll see how to figure out bout classes nih..ok i'm off for now.bye!

korea KIMCHI!

2008-06-17T18:16:00.000+08:00

juz got back from korea.still kindda tired from the flight.i 'm lazy to unpack my suitcase.so i'll do that later.the place is nice.the people are beautifully goodlooking.the guys are the typical korean drama kindda type and the girls are pretty.fair pretty and sweet type.shopping over there best.juz that some stuff kindda expensive.it was summer so a lot of nice stuff.the weather was ok.pleasant.compared to turkey last year which was freazin.their summer during the day is something like the weather back here in malaysia juz that it's dry in korea unlike in malaysia humid.at night it's windy and cooler then during the day.food was kimchi kimchi kimchi hehehe.ok i'll blog again more about korea trip later and post the pictures too.bye~

daily activities during the holidays hahaha.

2008-06-12T14:18:00.000+08:00

i've finished working at mama's office dah.wohoo.i've finished printing all the forms and the letters.only three more stacks left.someone else can finish that one.basically i'm now chillin.hehehe.although i've been working at mama's office helping out and all i still have been hanging out too.i find the time : ). monday morning went for breakfast with achim. i felt like having breakfast at mcd so i ajakd achim to go for breakfast.hangout and all.i was a lil bit kindda moody..since i was kindda bummed about the my results. Allhamdulilah my results is ok,just it was not great.we kindda talked a lot about it.so i guess he saw a side of me he hasn't seen before.my kindda down side. and as usual i talked a lot..after breakfast i didn't want to go home straight so we drove around n juz talked somemore.then achim sent me home,breakfast with achim was good and interesting :) and later tiks came over.hangout with tiks and we went to ikea restaurant.hangout.then went to buy the fabric paint.aqilah wanted to buy a different fabric paint.tiks told us this brand is good n way cheaper.so after dat went back home.then later went for dinner with liy.we went to the new place.jaya 33 i think the name.i forgot.i like the place it's nice.then went back home.phew long day of hanging out. on tuesday went to work.then at night went for belated birthday dinner with faez n khai.aqilah was angry faez forgot it was her birthday.hahaha.so we went to italiannis.had dinner there.talked a lot too.cos dah lama tak jumpa.after that went back home.i think i have about 3 more weeks more left till semester starts back.so for now i juz wanna chill.ok will blog again later!

the interesting family gathering n my 20th birthday~

2008-06-04T20:37:00.000+08:00

so last saturday was the family gathering, we had bbq.good food i ate a till i was full.hehehe.my sis n i decided to change our dish.instead of making creme caremal we made chilli chese fries.they liked it.yeah! successful dish~ after that abg man wanted to go get ice cream from baskin robbins.so us all the cousins went to baskin n robbins.there was soo many people.we had to take a number and wait for our number to be called.our number was 53 n the number at the time was 10.loooong wait.while waiting though there was this cute lil boy.he's two years old.soo cute n adorable.he came over to our table n started chatting with us.he kept us entertained.he's so cute n funny.so after we bought the ice cream we went back home n had family photo session pulak.hahaha.after photo session we chilled n had our dessert.baskin robbins ice cream.yummy.after the loong wait.it was worth it.the flavour abg man chose was nice.peanut butter chocolate.
next day on sunday abah,mama,abg arif,aqilah n me went to renaissance.we had lunch at the japanese restaurant.since my birthday was on monday.we decided to have lunch my birhtday lunch on sunday.since it's the weekend.then after that tiks ajak to interior designers exhabition.so aqilah n me went n met tiks there.from there we decided to go to klcc.took the star n lrt to klcc.n we even got lost jgk in kl.hahaha.a few people helped us. at klcc we went to the petronas gallery n after that juz chilled at the park.we experimented with the dslr and took photos.then went back home.
monday my birthday! 20th
Allhamdullilah to Allah for all the blessings,happy family,wonderful friends,good health and in me turning 20.omg.i'm no longer a teenager.wow..it feels fast.went to ou with tiks n nisha.had lunch at delicious.n the lovely tiks suprised aqilah n me with cupcakes from cupcake chic :) so sweet.then tiks had job interview at kl n aqilah nisha n me went back to nisha's house.aqilah n me wanted to meet nisha's lil brother.he's so cute. 1 year plus old.then went to go get my laptop.yeay i got the pictures dah..then at night went to secret recipe to go get my birthday cake~
today mama brought me to go buy material for my baju raya.after that we sent it to the tailor.slalu last minute.so this year we sent it awal.ok gtg dinner time~

work,hangouts etc

2008-05-31T14:00:00.000+08:00

so far for holidays i've been going to mama's office to help around.she's short of one staff so during holidays i go to mama's office to work.help around...i've finished doing most of the work assigned to me .hahaha.now we're juz waiting for the forms from the printer.when the forms dh arrive then i can continue with the completing of the forms.i think another 400 something more to go...anways last thursday i asked mama for a day off from work.hehehe.went for lunch with achim and basically juz talked and hangout.we went to curve and had lunch at the apartment.i didn't really like the food that i odered.b'cos it had pineapple salad.i don't like pineapple.the chicken was ok.later i decided to go to tesco to go buy stuff for this saturday family gathering.all the grandkids are suppose to cook.hahaha.so i still was not sure what to cook.so i ajak achim to go to tesco to go see what stuff i need to buy.i called mama and decided to make creme caramel.then i asked what ingredients i need to buy.mama said we already hav all the ingredients for creme caramel at home.hahaha.dah masuk tesco then only realise no need to buy anything pon.and achim told me something he noticed bout me that he find funny.he said i tend to repeat things that i say.i didn't realise it.until he mentioned it.okay...i'm weirdly funny sometimes..hehehe.after that achim sent me back home and as usual like most afternoons..takde orang kat rumah..everyone is not back home yet..there's only the maid..eiysh..i don't like it when takde orang at home except for the maid..other than that thursday with achim was good :) as usual i talked loads and loads and at times act kindda clowny. the tecso part was kindda clowny of me.hahaha.i realise that i tend to act that way with people i'm comfortable with.hehehe.then at night aqilah and liy ajak to go to curve again to go see a few bands perform at laundry.one of the band member from something something orchestra (i forgot the name of the band) is liy's friend.overall the performances was interesting.after that aqilah liy and me dediced to go to piccadilly to hangout and talk.then sent liy back and went back home.i was soo tired and sleepy.fell asleep straight away.ok so today is the family gathering.will blog again later.byee~

pictures from penang trip

2008-05-26T19:40:00.001+08:00

a weekend of roadtrip~

2008-05-26T19:30:00.000+08:00

last weekend my family and i had a roadtrip to penang. abah had to go for work and it's on his birthday.so we decided the whole family should go along to penang.so celebrate abah's birthday at penang.the last time i went to penang was last year.while i was still studying at kedah.since i'm now in shah alam no more trips to penang to chill.hahaha.so it's been quiet sometime since i went to penang.and it's been awhile since i went to the beach too.so we decided to stay at the hotel that's by the beach.it was nice.i got to go on the atv.i've always wanted to ride one.so since they had it at the beach for rent.so i decided to rent one hehehe.other then that's just spent time chillin by the beach. ok i'll upload the pics~

undergroundo.tv gig

2008-05-19T14:04:00.001+08:00

last saturday was the undergroundo.tv gig. the band's performances was great. especially butterfingers performance.the crowd went crazy for them.basically for most of the performances the crowd went crazy.especially the fans of the bands.that's what i noticed.hahaha.i got to watch oag performed.it was my first time i get to see them perform.i even got my picture taken with radhi n eric hehehe.owh and also got my picture taken with meet uncle hussein.tiks is crazy for meet uncle hussein.so we went and got our picture taken with them.they'e are nice bunch of people.both oag and meet uncle hussein.that's a good thing:) i'm so hoping the local bands stay that way.keep up the good job of staying as a nice bunch of people.unlike stories i've been hearing about one of the local bands.anyways no use writting about that.wasting time and energy je.right know the bands that performed at undergroundo.tv were all great and seem like nice people.so just keep up the good job,play good music and stay as nice bunch of people.other than that i was at the gig for all the performaces.at the end of the day my ears was drumming and kindda hurts a bit hahaha.i think around 8 hours straight at the gig watching all the bands performed.it was great.was soo tired after that.okay that's all for now.bye!

relaxing,helping aqilah,hangout.

2008-05-15T21:02:00.000+08:00

so far since the holidays has started mostly i've been relaxing at home lazying around hehehe. and of course like every semester i helped aqilah a bit with her projects.teman her go buy stuff for her models n helped her sikit with ideas for her models and of course temand her to shah alam for the final assesment. it was so hot in shah alam. and i was actually really tired.but aqilah woke me up early in the morning.so i got up and teman her to shah alam.helped her carry her model's n all.then went back and fell asleep.i was kindda tired n sleepy.hahaha.then otw back home went to tiks house to give her the ticket for this saturday's event.we talked for a while in the car. then went back home.last night i went to ou. b'cos marrie digby was performing there.bleyh too many people and can't hardly see and hear her.free performance can't expect much...aqilah,alia and me met faez n his friends.from ou we all went to uptown.had dinner at uptown and talked.they were so silly.the stuff they talked about.heiysh.we were all laughing most of the time.hahaha. so now since aqilah's final assesment is over aqilah she is so happy since her holidays has started.i wanna check out for events during the holidays.so if there are any interesting events i get to go check them out.at least i wont get soo bored at home.ok i'm gonna go search for interesting events.bye~